I sometimes wonder if I'm really living according to God's plan for me. So often, we fall short of his splender. Some days, from the second we get up, things go wrong one after the next. In response, I find myself trying harder. But no matter how hard I try, it doesn't seem to be enough. No matter how hard I try, how much I pray, how much I fast... it still isn't enough. I'm not in control, and never will be.